hmm...

Excellent point.

That last entry...

I just realized, reading over that last entry, I am incredibly fatalistic.

Maybe you can tell me, have I always been that way and just never chose to realize it?

Maybe I would like a comment or two on this one.

Dennis Lynn

A whole lot of nothin...

So I leave Whitewater in hopes of escaping drama (that and a good job offer) and run smack dab into the lions den. It's almost like I jumped from a fire to a volcano. Long story short one of my female friends is having issues with her lesbian ex-lover because she is hanging out with my roomate. Violence is involved. Actually my friend got the crap beat out of her today by her lesbian partner, so my sister and I went and picked her up from her abusive apartment where she is now staying with the man who has been at the center of all of this drama in the first place.

Why are people so self-destructive?

Oh well, the way I see it, this lesbian lover is freakin' nuts anyways, she is better off here then there and who cares what she thinks.

I hope that all wasn't too confusing...

So anyways, I think I am going to try my hand at writing a song again. A few years ago I tried to write a song and it didn't go so well, I think I wanna try again.

Moving on...

I talked to my roomate today, and I am moving out in May to live with Andy, which is pretty pimp. I am just excited to have a roomate I can actually hang out with again without any nervous tension. It also helps that the place we are moving to has a swimming pool, sauna, hot tub, and work out facility, let's not forget in apartment laundry, fireplace, cathedral ceilings, and underground heated parking, all for about 100 bucks less than the place I am currently residing. Oh yeah, and Erin lives in the same complex. Wildly convenient if you don't mind my saying so, and really you don't have a choice, so I am saying so.

I can't wait to get a new job. I don't even care where, I just want a change of pace. A part of me wants to stick with this job because I am up for a raise soon, but another part of me still hates all the bullshit that comes with being in charge of adolescent gamers. I am not talking about my employees, I am talking about the kids whose parents drop them off at my store as a sort of free day care, all the while never being asked if I was even capable of caring for their children. I am more worried for the children than anything, the fact that they would just leave their kids at a video game store and expect everything to be fine for extended periods of time, does wonders to my faith in parenthood. I just hope I am never like that. If I am going to let video games supervise my kids, it is gonna have to happen in my own house, not under the charge of someone presumeably unqualified to care for my children, for all they know I could be a registered sex offender! I think I am gonna start charging for any time that a child spends in my store unattended in excess of a half hour.

I want to win the lottery, make all my money issues go away. I definetly need that. I owe WAY more money than I make, and I am simply too generous with the little bit of money I have. I should travel back in time to high school and write down every person who I loaned money too so I can get it back to pay off the people who loaned money to me. Too bad I am not like that.

Erin and I are in a good place right now. She is working full time, and going to school full time which I am beginning to realize is maybe a good thing. To date, there really hasn't been much in the way of a test to our relationship, if you don't count the incredible beginning, and we could use a bit of shifting in our pontoon. If this relationship is gonna make it for the long haul, there really has to be a test like this, we don't see eachother much anymore, and we need to learn how to manage our time and make time when we can while still making time for our friends and other obligations. I am actually impressed so far, I mean for a little while it seemed a little too difficult, but I am settling in and actually enjoying this whole thing. It sounds bad to say it, but I almost like it more when I have to work really hard to maintain a relationship. Perhaps that is why so many in the past failed, I mean maybe I was never in a relationship where I felt like I wanted it to be hard. It always seemed to be that whenever it got too difficult, one of us would end it to save any future pain. I guess I just feel like I want to do whatever I can to make the little time we spend together as unforgettable as possible so that when we go a week or so without seeing eachother we really look forward even more so to the time we spend together.

Anyways, I am going to start making more frequent trips back to Whitewater. I have decided that I have distanced myself from that town and my friends there too much. I have almost taken it for granted that I have friends, I have never really taken the time to put the effort in to maintaining a lot of those friendships. I really only talk to Tommy and Andy nowadays. I am going to make a stronger effort to make myself more available so I can come out and party more, or just hang out. To that end, if any of you are reading this and wanna hang out, you should definetly call me and I will do what I can to come out and hang, cause I really do miss it.

I am running out of stuff to talk about and I gotta work in the morning, if you wanna hear more on my life you really should call me. Even if I am working, I am always more than willing to answer my phone as long as I am not too busy, besides, anybody who knows me, knows how much I like to talk. Take care!

Dennis Lynn

I'm naked and posting!

That's right folks, I just got out of the shower and I wanted to post. I figured a seamless transition was the only way to do this. So here is my naked post!

Should there have been a time when I have pissed one or more of my faithful readers off, I am sorry. I know I don't keep in contact with anybody like I used to. I shifted my priorities and left a bunch of my friends in the dust. It is most unfortunate, and I am looking to quit my job and do something less time consuming and stressful. I am looking into being a personal banker.

"Why a personal banker?" You may be asking or... "Damn it son, you work in video games why in the hell would you of all people want to get out?!?!"

Answer A:

Personal banking sounds more professional, it seems like a good fit for me because I get to keep selling, and the freakin pay 5000 dollars worth of tuition.

Answer B:

Because my district manager SUCKS ASS!! About a month ago he got on me about the condition of my organizational skills aka my store looked like crap... however in my defense it was the busiest day of the year and I only had myself and one other person on staff that day, he just happened to show up at 6:00 that night and "re-arrange" my store. Making it look like even more ass. Ever since that day he has been short with me, making me feel like a worthless piece of crap, when in fact i brought this store from the pond scum of the corporate sespool and brought it to within contention. I need a little help from corporate office, but I am not getting it. If they want this store to do even better either they need to give me the resources to pull it off, or they are gonna have to find someone else to be their miracle worker. Well, either way they are gonna have to find someone else 'cause I am tired of not getting noticed for the work I do, and the overtime I do and did put in.

So it seems that personal banking is where it's at for me. If that doesn't work I want to get into radio advertising. I just want a job that will pay for part of my schooling while offering a competitive hourly wage. I want hourly cause that way I will get paid for any overtime I put in. That is the way it should be.

As for what else is new, Erin and I are still together, it is getting hard because she is back in school this week and working full time. We have seen each other twice in the last 2 weeks for about 3 hours each. But, surprisingly, it sucks but I am ok. I just don't want there to be this rift in hour relationship. I am sure it will be fine though.

Work sucks.

Andy may be moving up to madison with me in like may. That would be super sweet. I have lived with him twice already and the fact that i want to do it again is a testament to how much we are both alike. It is obvious to me, that we are the straight version of Bert and Ernie, although on certain occasions where I get drunk at ferris, i do sleep on his bed ;)

It will be nice to have a friend up here besides Paul, Steve, and Mooney, I also see Silk on occasion. It just seems to me that Andy and I are a lot alike anyways, with a 2 month delay on our moods. So far though, Erin hasn't broken up with me, so we may need to alter that view.

I was in atlanta for 4 days with Erin and her family, the more I think about it, the more I think maybe it was too soon for us to do something like that. I think that only because when we got back from spending 24 hours a day together, we got back to reality and only saw eachother for about 2 hours for the next 4 and she was sick for a lot of that. To be tested like this is something we should have saved for oh, i don't know, never! But at least so far, we are still kickin, i am not to worried about any adverse effect yet, we will see what happens once school starts and she gets into a work groove. We will see if her belief that maintaining her relationship with me will change. Hopefully that isn't the case.

So apart from that, there is nothing new to report. Once again, I am sorry to all my friends in whitewater who felt like i abandoned them. It was not my intention, but it is how things like this go, when people move away relationships change. That is all i gotta say about that.


Take care folks!!

Dennis Lynn