This is Erin by the way...

I'm bored, and thought I would write. This isn't my blog I know, but I can't remember my password for my previous blog, and Dennis already has his saved on his computer...shhh, he never checks this anyway =)

So I saw Click tonight. Very "It's A Wonderful Life"-ish. Both Tommy and Dennis liked it (I think more for Kate Beckinsdale in little boy shorts than anything), and it made me well up a bit. It basically plays out this guy's life and how he fast forwards through the whole thing and misses his kids growing up, he gets a divorce without even knowing it, and he wasn't even there for his dad dying. It just made me think of how much in life we take for granted, and how much LIFE I have yet to live. It's scary and exciting all in one. I started thinking about kids and elementary school and vacations and....then I had to slow down and realized I was doing exactly what the movie preached against. Looking to the future and seemingly the "best parts" of life, and not appreciating what I have now, which is everything.

People argue differently. I have never truly realized how differently until I started seeing Dennis. He and I have a completely different view on how to argue or more specifically, on how to deal with anger. He's laid back, more "why get upset over it if it's not going to fix it? Just get over it and move on, because all you're doing is getting yourself upset and then me upset." I'm definitely more "I need a release, I need that quick spout of anger, and then I'm good." But if that spout of anger is dismissed or quieted, it just builds up and comes up later. Do you think that's more personality type or just the difference between the sexes? Talk amongst yourselves.

The wedding is fast approaching. I don't know how I would've lasted if we would have pushed it to next year. Planning a wedding is no small feat. It takes your time, energy, and every dose of patience that you have in you. But every few seconds or hours or days, I just stop and wonder at the whole thing. I found him, and we're doing it. The big W. It's happening just like I thought it would, but had given up on only a year ago. Quite a few of my girlfriends are engaged as well. I know, so young, but it just happened that way. And we met up for drinks the other day, talking about how it happened to each one of us, and nobody was looking for it. Nobody was pursuing a guy or a relationship or anything like that. It just happened. I need to take that lesson and apply it to the rest of my life. Of course motivation and hard work is important to get you anywhere, but a lot of times, I work too much or think about it too much, and for the most part, both of those solutions have failed me. A little reminder for myself when I tuck myself in for the night and my mind starts whirring.

I should go. I left the bar early to go to bed, and now I'm sitting up on this thing, blogging. I used to keep a pretty consistent blog, but then I was always busy or talking it out with someone. I apologize to all of you who view this as a breach of privacy or were hoping for a blog from Dennis. If anyone wishes to have him post, just send him a comment and he might get back into the swing of things. Thank you for your time and good night to all.

Erin Kathleen