Trans-Siberian

So, today, for Erin's Christmas present, I took her with a couple brothers to see trans-siberian orchestra. We then went out to dinner at a fancy restaurante.

Let's get a couple things straight before I continue...

I made a few slight assumptions :

* It is universally accepted that Trans-Siberian Orchestra plays good music with a fantastic show

* Girls like Trans-Siberian Orchestra

* Trans-Siberian Orchestra tickets would be a good christmas present...


I am DEAD wrong.

So we go see the show, it was actually pretty good, I am not a gigantic fan of Trans-Siberian Orchestra, but I figured she would like it so I gave it a shot and was pleasantly surprised. However, I was late picking up Erin, Paul and Erin so we got there just in time... Brian was pissed and so was everybody else.

We went to dinner at this place in Oregon that was supposed to be really good. It wasn't bad, but hardly worth the money. I could have gotten the same quality of meat and service from Applebees for about 20 bucks cheaper, but whatever.

Then we went to Brians place for a few drinks and chillin time afterwards...

Doesn't sound too bad right?

Well I was kinda wrong.

Erin strongly dislikes Trans-Siberian orchestra. Hardly makes for a good christmas present. I probably would have been better off buying her a box of shit, at least then it would have cost less for her to be dissapointed.

Dinner really was that bad, I mean it was filet so it is hard for it to suck entirely but it really wasn't that great.

So that christmas present sucked.

To top it all off, she really really didn't want to be at Brian's, and I just didn't get that memo.

So all in all it was a pretty crappy day for Erin. I had a decent time though, for her christmas present.

That being said, HOW MUCH WORSE OF A BOYFRIEND COULD I BE!!! This is why I think I had such a hard time with sustaining relationships before, i just don't get it. I am really that dumb, I can't pick up on simple hints. Even obvious ones. She had freakin' told me that she was sick of Trans-Siberian Orchestra, but she said it would be fun and i took her word for it. I don't even know what to do to make it right.

Ugh, this sucks, you know maybe she is better off with another guy... any guy for that matter. Anybody with sense in their brain would have given her a much cooler christmas present, one she actually wants. I thought i was being cool, but i have no idea what cool is. It is awefully hard to be positive when it seems like at every turn I am disappointing her. And it aslo doesn't help her best friend hates me. So now Erin is gonna tell her about her crappy evening adding fuel to the hate Dennis fire.

Surprisingly the pontoon still floats, but I wonder how long will she stay on before swimming herself back to shore.

I know i am just being negative, and it is important to understand i am not asking for sympathy. It is also important to understand that Erin was nothing but grateful for her christmas present even though it sucks, saying it's "the thought that counts" which i think makes it worse, because she can be so understanding about me being such a lutz. How many more times do I need to make a fool of myself, especially since i have been doing it from day one.

I think the reason why I am so scared, is because I really do love this girl, I want to be everything right for her. Whenever i do something, I want it to be the best so at the end of the day she can be proud to be with me.

But who could ever love a beast...

Dennis Lynn

If this is just a dream...

Then it is probably best I continue sleeping.

I would leave more than that, but I love vague blog entries. Let's just say my life couldn't possibly get a whole lot better.

Too bad work sucks balls.

I guess I am sharing my hammock for a while! (take that peanuts)

Speaking of which, that bastard is coming up here on monday... SWEET!!

Oh, and Tommy and I are going to Italy, and they won't know what hit them.

Peace outside

it's been a while...

For those of you dedicated enough to still be checking my blog on a regular basis, seriously my life is not that exciting you should know that by now.

Anyways, I don't apologize for not posting, this bloody thing is a drama machine, but I am gonna post today cause I feel like it. So, take that.

Let's see... where to begin...

I moved to a new apartment last month, it is a great place and i have a great roomate who is a chef. My apartment has a pool and a nice workout facility, it really is amazing...

That being said, i am moving out. I don't really want to, but i am being forcibly moved, in one of the coldest months of the year, shortly before christmas. Needless to say I am not happy. But, to be clear, it isn't like I am gonna be homeless, i am being forced to move back with my old roomate mark. So at least i am gonna have a place to call my own, however erin can't come over, i can't hang out in the living room or cook without feeling the singe of hate burning on me from mark. I hope to God he has grown up a little bit so we can have at least a working relationship so i can hang out in my own living room and cook in my own kitchen... I pay half the rent too ya know. The super unfortunate thing is that no matter what happens between me and mark, even if we become best friends, Erin won't come over. She apparently wants nothing to do with him, which is understandable, but now i will only be able to see her when i go to her place. Which could be worse, she is moving into a really nice new apartment. Fireplace and all. That is pretty sweet. If nothing else i can use the work out room at her place, no pool though. Sad day.

Anyways, I um work a lot. Not more than usual but sill a lot. I guess i am just frustrated because i am expected to be doing all of this stuff, and i don't get paid hardly enough for the work that i do. I am expected to basically work on my days off. I asked off for the 17th of december because i have a family christmas that day and i had to explain it to my district manager. Excuse me, i am alreay working christmas eve and christmas day apparently that is not good enough. I haven't had a christmas day off in a few years now, it isn't too much to ask that i get to celebrate christmas sometime with my family. Oh yeah and i have lost a grand total of 2 weeks worth of vacation since i have been hired. When asked if i could take a vacation the week after thanksgiving, my district managers response was if you haven't used it by now you have to wait till next year.

My buisness last week was one of the slowest of the year.

I am tired of this crap, i know this is what i get for not having my degree, but it is just a freakin piece of paper, i mean seriously i could draw up a bar napkin saying i am smart and i as long as i get some snobby assface to sign it i am all good.

Not to say i am not gonna go back to school, probably MATC just to get that damned piece of paper, then i am totally out of there. I could probably get my degree in underwater basket weaving and i would be welcome with open arms at most major corporations.

If you are still in school, you are a stronger person than i am, i am too weak to deal with that malarky so i left, should i have stayed and just got something, yes, so to all of you who are sticking it out knowing full well how much of a waste of time it is, i commend you.

To those of you actually getting something out of school, doctors, engineers, biologists, chemists, etc. you are the best of all, you actually challenged yourself at an institution built to mass produce signed documents. Yours will actually mean something, i hope your career reflects that and you don't become a snobby assface...

And to all the assfaces like me, living day to day, week to week, doing what they wanted to do, fear not, your are not alone. I am also happy, much like all the people still in school. I am probably equally as intelligent, if not more so, than others my age in school. Without that piece of paper though we are no better than working class, serving the needs of those who, while they may lack proper social skills, are still making more, monetarily, than we are. Just don't dwell on it...

like i am.

I guess that is all, i am gonna take a shower and wash myself of that. I forgot how nice it was to place something wildly unimportant on a public forum. The one thing i will say about this is that it makes you feel important, knowing that no matter what kind of life you lead, somebody wants to read about it, and people are disappointed when they can't be a part of it. I can take solace in knowing that no matter how silly i get about inconsequential things, somebody will be staring at their moniter, laughing at my situation. It kinda makes me feel better knowing somebody thinks i am ridiculous equally as much as i do.

And most of all at least i have someone who loves me enough at the end of the day, that she will still let me take her out to dinner and pay :) cause she knows the little things for me mean so much.

Good day everyone, and i hope you enjoyed the reading that preceded. NOW GO BACK TO YOUR OWN LIVES!!!

Dennis